My aunt goes into chemotherapy for cancer tomorrow (Tuesday, April 17, 2006).
It's not her first time - but I would think that any time is a not a good time. Unfortunately, breast cancer in a woman is not news. But as they say, when it happens to you, it's different.
As I have always said, this blog site is for me, my thoughts and my opinions. So here I am writing about my aunt.
Is she great? I am not here to try to convince anyone of that. All I know is that she is Dusty's wife (a great wife at that), she is the mother of Brooks and Dustin (a great mother at that), she is Carol's sister (a great sister at that), and she is Jennifer, Shannon and Earle's aunt (a great aunt at that).
She is my aunt. I am Earle - her nephew.
I have no idea what a woman goes through in dealing with breast cancer. I am just a "guy." What I do know is that it can't be any be fun. I know it sounds simplistic, but as with most difficult times, the least said the better.
What I will say, is I my heart goes out to her. Obviously, I wish she didn't have to go through this. I wish I there was a way to take away her anxiety, take away her fear. I truly wish I could away the pain.
Why?
I guess it goes to family. In the end, it's your family that gives you your strength and the sense of being. I know it is not always the case, however my family is blessed. Our family - in their infinite and VERY bizarre way, gives each other the strength of conviction and ultimately the belief in who we are.
This is the strength that is inherent in my family. I am sure my aunt is going through all sorts of emotions as she prepares and deals with chemotherapy tomorrow. In the end, I truly believe (and hope) her strength comes from her belief in the love of herself and the love the family feels for her.
You always want everything to be perfect. It's a fault of mine in my business. But as I get older, I realize that all I really want is to do my best. Unfortunately, my best doesn't help my aunt. All I can give her is my love and hope that my love gives her the strentgh to get through a tough time.